Would you agree to communicate with me by e-mail? 25/10/2016

The Lawyer texted me this morning, enclosing his e-mail address. WITHOUT PREJUDICE,I replied jokingly. I barely pressed the send button when the phone rang. Ludka,have you had legal training? No. But the WITHOUT PREJUDICE. I never get it from a layman. I have had a good teacher. Your husband? Yes. He must have been a remarkable man.Would I ever measure up to him? Yes. I have not expected this answer.It is the nicest thing you could have said to me. Oh,Tom,you have not yet lost anyone dear to you and do not know what tricks the memories can play.There is not a man more perfect than a dead man.The bad becomes blurred,the wonderful is magnified and it consumes you.And the pain and grief engulfs you until you almost cannot breathe,it stifles you and soon you know no other life.You are suffocating in the loneliness, you grieve alone,you cry alone,you laugh alone.And somehow in that unbearable emptiness you must find strength to go on. Why does life have to deal this card? There is no justice in it.Why don't we forget the good and remember the bad, maybe then the loss would not be all consuming,then we could so much easier find a new love,build a new life. Half an hour later there was an e-mail - shall we start at the beginning? The childhood?